I don’t know when love became so elusive.
Or was I too jaded to hear the thoughts so intrusive ?
Should I try to save us or should I chuck up the deuces ?
The thought of shaking you totally just feels so abusive.
But the foundation we’re built on just isn’t conducive…
On this relationship there’s no blessings from above.
There was a point in time I thought you fit me like a glove.
Man you were just so seducive.
I mean seductive.
Part of me knows progressing any further would be counter productive.
The only love we could make was toxic and destructive.
With or without you my breathing is obstructed.
Sigh. F**k it.
I care for you still and I always will.
Wish summer was longer.
One too many I love yous got your heart sinking.
Mind over matter is magic.
Just don’t think about it.
It’ll be over in no time.
These four walls, they got me in prison.
Did I ever really mean something to you ?
I thought I was dreaming when you said you loved me.
But now I see this was the start of nothing.
We felt like we were kids back then.
But we’ll never be those kids again.
Is it okay to hate you now ?
I wish I could but I don’t know how.
We both know that deep down the feelings still good.
But we don’t go deep down.
We stay at the surface where the nothing begins.
I’m sorry to say but we can never be just friends.
Still thank you for the pseudo love you showed me.
We both know that deep down it wasn’t real my dear.
And it’s all downhill from here.
What you showed me wasn’t love.
We can’t go deep down, gotta stay above.
There’s no pain greater than seeing the one you love happy with someone else
It’s nothing less that forty four stabs in the heart while sitting in an electric chair at the bottom of the ocean all alone after tumbling off cloud 9.It’s a bad religion to be in love with someone who doesn’t love you.
Memories flash from my past
Nostalgia. Why couldn’t the laughter last
My heart is beating fast
Longing to go back. Anxiety attack
They’ll never understand
So compassion they lack
Stumbled. Trying to get back on track
No one cares about the facts
So they gossip. Comments with no tact
They’re murdering me slowly
Not even softly. Isolated
I’d much rather stay sedated
Better than dwelling on the things I’ve hated
I don’t wanna be heartless of numb
But I’m already so jaded
Drowning slowly in the puddle of hell I’ve created
I’m the sugar in your coffee
Ctrl, alt; I’m your delete
I am the screen for your sun on the hottest summers day
April showers; I am your flowers in May
I am important
I am your calm after a long days work
Mid-afternoon; I am your second wind perk
Guitar, piano; I am your bass
Finish line, conquer all; I am the race
It started out a familiar friday. I woke up just the same as the last fortnight of fortnights. 6 am I get out of bed. 6:15 I work out. 6:45 I shower. 7 I eat breakfast and watch the news. 7:30 I walk to the garage and hop in my car. By exactly 8 am I’m at my desk at work. This is where everything changed and friday ceased being so familiar. Anger has been welling within me for long enough. Today, there will be a reckoning.
We were lying there in the grass in silence watching the clouds go by. Imagining prominent figures arranged with dust and droplets of water. Then in a split second, as if all the planets suddenly aligned, a cloud drifted across the sun revealing its rays of fire. Then I looked at you in the brightness with my pupils completely dilated and I saw you. For the first time I really saw you. The true you, in the purest form. My heart stopped and all sound faded away and I basked in your glory for only half a second and just as fast, the planets spread out and the breeze swept a cloud back over the sun and I closed my eyes to hold on to this feeling just a second longer. And it was then. At that last moment, that I knew that I was in love with you.