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Gone

I don’t know when love became so elusive.

Or was I too jaded to hear the thoughts so intrusive ?

Should I try to save us or should I chuck up the deuces ?

The thought of shaking you totally just feels so abusive.

But the foundation we’re built on just isn’t conducive…

For love.

On this relationship there’s no blessings from above.

There was a point in time I thought you fit me like a glove.

Man you were just so seducive.

I mean seductive.

Part of me knows progressing any further would be counter productive.

The only love we could make was toxic and destructive.

With or without you my breathing is obstructed.

Sigh. F**k it.

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Prison

I care for you still and I always will.

Wish summer was longer.

One too many I love yous got your heart sinking.

Mind over matter is magic.

Just don’t think about it.

It’ll be over in no time.
These four walls, they got me in prison.

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Pseudo love 

Did I ever really mean something to you ?

I thought I was dreaming when you said you loved me.

But now I see this was the start of nothing.

We felt like we were kids back then.

But we’ll never be those kids again.

Is it okay to hate you now ?

I wish I could but I don’t know how.

We both know that deep down the feelings still good.

But we don’t go deep down.

We stay at the surface where the nothing begins.

I’m sorry to say but we can never be just friends.

Still thank you for the pseudo love you showed me.

We both know that deep down it wasn’t real my dear.

And it’s all downhill from here.

What you showed me wasn’t love.

We can’t go deep down, gotta stay above.

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Unreciprocated love 

There’s no pain greater than seeing the one you love happy with someone else
It’s nothing less that forty four stabs in the heart while sitting in an electric chair at the bottom of the ocean all alone after tumbling off cloud 9.It’s a bad religion to be in love with someone who doesn’t love you.

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Good bye

Memories flash from my past

Nostalgia. Why couldn’t the laughter last

My heart is beating fast

Longing to go back. Anxiety attack

They’ll never understand

So compassion they lack

Stumbled. Trying to get back on track

No one cares about the facts

So they gossip. Comments with no tact

They’re murdering me slowly

Not even softly. Isolated

I’d much rather stay sedated

Better than dwelling on the things I’ve hated

I don’t wanna be heartless of numb

But I’m already so jaded

Happiness faded

Drowning slowly in the puddle of hell I’ve created

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VIP

I’m important

I’m the sugar in your coffee

Death sweet

Ctrl, alt; I’m your delete

I am the screen for your sun on the hottest summers day

April showers; I am your flowers in May

I am important

I am your calm after a long days work

Mid-afternoon; I am your second wind perk

Guitar, piano; I am your bass

Finish line, conquer all; I am the race

So important

Posted in short stories

Reckoning Day

 

It started out a familiar friday. I woke up just the same as the last fortnight of fortnights. 6 am I get out of bed. 6:15 I work out. 6:45 I shower. 7 I eat breakfast and watch the news. 7:30 I walk to the garage and hop in my car. By exactly 8 am I’m at my desk at work. This is where everything changed and friday ceased being so familiar. Anger has been welling within me for long enough. Today, there will be a reckoning.

 

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Falling For You

We were lying there in the grass in silence watching the clouds go by. Imagining prominent figures arranged with dust and droplets of water. Then in a split second, as if all the planets suddenly aligned, a cloud drifted across the sun revealing its rays of fire. Then I looked at you in the brightness with my pupils completely dilated and  I saw you. For the first time I really saw you. The true you, in the purest form. My heart stopped and all sound faded away and I basked in your glory for only half a second and just as fast, the planets spread out and the breeze swept a cloud back over the sun and I closed my eyes to hold on to this feeling just a second longer. And it was then. At that last moment, that I knew that I was in love with you.